Decisions, decisions

January 5, 2011

Decisions, decisions

Today is one of those days that I got some time to reflect on my situation. And I did so much reflecting that my words would jumble up with each other and I get confused on what I really feel. So, I paused and breathed. So where I am right now? I’m a mother of two kids. A full time mom. Paused again. A wife to a great husband who is very responsible and loving not just to me but our two sons. Basically that’s it. That’s the summary of my situation right now. Sounds simple, yeah I know but as one of my Whatever shirts says – my life is based on a true story - . and of course it is. Well, whatever.

Where was I again? Ow, on my situation. Pause. Thinking. Okay, I’m in a middle of a crossroad here. And it’s so hard to choose. Or maybe I’m just scared to choose. To be or not to be? That is always the question. There are so many choices to choose from and each has its own pros and cons making it more difficult to decide. Pause. Stare into space. Think, think, think (when you have a problem, think, think, think! - from tigger and pooh) and the song is running through my head now distracting me from thinking at all. Or maybe I just want to be distracted so I don’t have to think at all. Sigh. I’ll just stare into space again until I get sense through my head….

On Being A Full Time Mom

October 2, 2009

Yesterday was the first year of my being a full time mom.

I can still remember my former officemate saying I'm lucky to be just at home taking care of the baby. And I can still recall the HR's 'Wow, ang swerte mo naman!' when she knew that I'm resigning to be at home with my son.

It wasn't so difficult for me to decide to be a full time mom. I mean if I were to choose between family and work, i would definitely choose my family any time, no matter what. Even if I have to sacrifice some extras that my income can afford for my family, I would still choose my family. I have always wanted to be a housewife.

After a year of being a full time mom, I could say that I really am blessed to be with my son everyday. Come to think of it I was only separated from him for maximum of three days (when I went to manila early this year). I have witnessed most of his milestones that most mothers nowadays don't experience. I'm not discounting that some moms really have to work, but I'm just glad I was there for my baby. Though I did have a yaya for six months and I needed one because my baby was born through C-section and I had to return to work back then after two months of maternity leave. But after eight months until now, it was just me and my baby.

Looking back, it was all worth it especially with just me, my husband and our baby and no yaya. Back then, most of the prepping was by the yaya. When there was no yaya, my husband and I have to make a schedule as to what we need to do. And to this day I'm very thankful for my husband who is a very hands-on dad. My hubby usually bathes our baby in the morning (he wakes up earlier than i do) and evening (because i'm too tired after the day's babysitting) and does the bottle sterilizing. I do our baby's laundry and I babysit all day. My hubby does the babysitting when he gets home from work.

So for now, basically that's my daily routine being a hands-on mom. Sounds boring, I know, but I'm loving every moment even with all the tiredness I feel and the sleep deprivation ever since I gave birth. And no it's never boring raising a child especially your own. =)